I Fear I May Relapse I Am Trying Very Hard to Stay Clean?

Question by annie: I fear i may relapse i am trying very hard to stay clean?
I’ve had a terrible year. I used to use drugs heavily in the past. I was clean for about 5 years. Then this past year I relapsed for about 3 months and I have been clean since September. I had a lot happen within the last year, deaths in the family, I had a life threatening miscarriage in May (before my relapse), and I had been trying to escape a scary relationship of abuse. Now I’m in counseling have been since August and I still feel “abused”. I really feel so badly traumatized I feel like just numbing myself. I remember the feeling of escape and I crave it so badly. I’m trying so hard. But it is very tempting. I feel so damaged.

Best answer:

Answer by Barbie Doll
I’m sorry that all of that happened to you. It’s so amazing that you want to recover again though. Check yourself into the hospital. That’s what I would do. Jesus loves you and paid for your life with his. He is always there for you, and is waiting for you to call to him for help. Trust him and he will take care of you.

Answer by Jessica
Hi Annie,

You have had an awful year, anyone can see that. I understand counseling is a long and frustrating process, but you WILL get there. Perhaps see a therapist as well? like a psychologist? maybe more than one form of support will be more beneficial to you.

I’m sorry to hear about your miscarriage! 🙁 you’ve had so much to deal with in such a short space of time.

Please don’t relapse, all of your progress so far will be wasted. And you know in your heart you don’t want to go there again, otherwise you’d have done it by now. You are worth so much more than drugs, don’t become another statistic, embrace life!

Take care, x


 

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