Drug Abuse

Question by : Help me!!please im confused i dont know how to live!?
Help me im scared of life i cant get terapy or go to the doctor because they struggle to pay bills and my brother is in college
so here are my problems i told my friend these she said i was not normal

-ive attempted suicide
-i really want to die
-i keep dieting but then i binge so i purge
-i cant stop cutting
-i try to be happy or pretent but ive gotton so depressed that i cant even fake smile
-at times when im alone i laugh uncontrollably
-i here voices in my head saying horrible stuff about me
-i talk to my self not out loud but i worried that i do sometimes think on loud without noticing some times
-i get parranoid allot
-im exreamly shy i cant even tell my mom how i feel
-i hate myself and i think every one hates me
-i feel some of my friends ditched me due to my deppression fatness and uglyness
-im so f****** retarded seriouly im so slow
-i get worried easily
-i get annoyed easily i try my best to hide it
-ive overdoes medication tried to hang myself but im too fat and the rope snapped
-brother said today i look like a zombie the way i act and walk ect

how can i stop this i dont know who i am!!!
I want to know whats wrong ???
Some one help me
how can i beat this at home
btw there is no way i can go to the doctor
deppression runs in my family and i know i have it
i also have pale skin very heavy dark circles around eyes

Best answer:

Answer by Attinder
Well people survive cuz sm1 depends upon then (elder people), younger people live cuz they have dreams , aims to achieve, seems like u dont have any

Answer by Jeffin
Hun, u need to stop thinking your horrible! You need to stop being so self conscious! Keep yourself busy. Why do you think god made you? God gave you the gift of life! and your not going to kill ur self! You trust in Jesus and he will find a way for you! Just for one week. Try to read the bible! I promise you there will be a great change in your life! Your one of God’s lovely creatures. Don’t ever think your not worth it! Because God loves you and he still does! Whatevr your going through just trust him!!

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