Drug Abuse

Question by Katie: I just ruined my teenage childhood.?
In year 6 when i was 11, my life was perfect. tones of friends, 4 best friends, great education and high grades and my relationship with my family was great. But when i went to secondary school, i just did not fit in. my 4 best mate went to different schools and in the first term a rumor went around about me, what the rumor was is nothing to do with my current problem, but it did insure that i would not have any friends for 1 and a half years. every one belived the rumor, most people just avoided me but the popular kids would bully me. i was very good at deflecting all the verbal and physical insults they would though at me, but the lack of good friends hurt me. After a month or so i found a friend who was also an outcast, me and her became close mates in school but out of school we were never seen together ’cause we never really were to simalar. this pattern continued for pretty much the whole of year 7 and 8.

But in the mean time this was happening my home life started to fall apart. my mum and dad had always argued but it was starting to get more common, my brother would hit me and hurt me, before long i was bruised and emotionaly drained from school and home. I started to act odd, my mum just thought it was me being a “teenager” but she would get mad at me, and after a few months she started hitting me too.

resently i thought thing were getting better as i started to convinse people this rumor was not true and i got more friends. but just when i thought the dark patch was ending, my nan died. since the start of this me and her had been getting closer and then she DIED. i know I’m in some sort of denile because i never cried and i never really accsepted that i wont see her again. i can bearly look at my grandad any more, and my mum got more violent.

in the past month 2 of my best friends have been growing away from me and i cant loose them, they mean the world to me litteraly.

i never told any one any of this but today, i popped. i told only a small part, but it was enough for my mum to hate me. i told her she was a discusting, violent, woman and i refused to belive she was my biological mother and i wannted to go to a foster home, any were away from here. its all true but she still hates me.

i am being emotionaly abused, i know i am, after my nan died i stated to cut myself, and grew addicted as you would a drug, it got to the point when i would be cutting 3 times a day. by the way i am not an emo, and i cut because it physical pain releases indophins into the body that numb emotional pain and the emotional pain is so much worse than the physical pain. I managed to get off the cutting but i still get cravings for it an I need HELP!

My childhood has been taken away from me, help, so i dont take away my whole life.

Best answer:

Answer by Breann
My life is like this too:( just take a deep breath call the police and if u don’t want to make friends with new people in ur grade. Just don’t kill urself.

Answer by rklee0122
I’m not being mean, but you need to talk to a theropist. They can help you with the anger issues, and help you with the family issues. Your sounding like your going to self destruct. Please get some help, it really sounds serious.
Good Luck!